theremiss:

          I am scared

          of seeing you again,
          dreading the moment
          when your smile crashes
          into my soul once more;
          fearing your every breath
          will unfold
          my origami walls. 

i’ve fallen for words,

of poems well-adorned by many. 

i’ve fallen for your words.

wishing with every line, you speak of me. 

tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

my “happy”.

i miss you.

would that hurt?…

;)

“why do you keep on pushing people away?” 

a boy asked me once, twice, a couple of times.

but i am not. i’m simply shutting myself away from them.

and its not the same as pushing them away.

he knew what he was getting into, and still persisted.  i knew i’d just hurt him, and yet i persisted. how can i allow that to happen in the first place?

so many times have i tried to stay out of his life but i can’t.

so many stolen moments were shared in an attempt to keep him close,even though somebody else is closer to my heart. :( 

a raging heart raises a white flag and suddenly surrendered to life’s mischievous fate. like poker, love is a game of chance. you have options you can manipulate-check, raise or fold; love, fight or ignore. but the cards you play, and the person who comes into your life, you can never choose. you gamble your pride and trust, for what? you might win her love, but you can’t be with her. and that, really sucks. :|

2005-2006 artworks :)

i love him now. and it’s not right. i’m starting a mess, and it’s not right. 

the best thing to do, is to stop. 

try as i might, but i cannot keep them both.

:’(